Sweet, the Christmas break is gonna start in about two weeks! I can't wait!

Grade 11 has been a truck load of work. Even though my marks are still good, the pace in which school work is being given to us has increased a hell lot. (T_T) My history teacher, who is a rather interesting individual, gives us assignments that are like university style. Which makes writing this essay, which I'm working on right now, a rather...daunting task. BTW, I suck at math...Functions to me is like reading Shakespear English. I mean, I see it and I get what the question wants me to do, but I don't understand. (@_@...I swear i failed that math test last Thursday T_T) English is easy, xD only b/c I got the easiest teacher in the department, but she's awesome. ^_^ I get good marks from here xD. Oh yeah, and Bio is pretty easy too,but I gotta study more in order to keep my high 80 average in that class. =P Screwed up on test...*sigh* Genetics...Didn't study too well for that 'cause I was wayyy too excited for the Assassin's Creed 2 release. XD

Hmm, yeah those are my four subjects for this semester. Ooooh Sweet sweet Winter Break, COME FASTER!! T_T There's so much work...and so little time!! AHH!! and God! It's so hard to stay awake after eating lunch and having math!

And all we here from teachers nowdays is, "It's only one more year before your all go off to universtity or college..." I mean come on, you think we don't know that! Some of us aren't even ready for that, others don't even wanna think about it. While I just wanna get out of high school...ok...well i don't really...i just want to get away from some certain people...but...gahh....=_="...i dunno. I thought getting out of high school and into Universtiy was like a good idea, but after walking around UT campus the other day and going into the main lacture hall...I'm getting second thoughts.  I'm not scared...I'm just freaked by the idea my time in high school is actually running out. Hell...I was the kid in the 9th grade who wanted in and out of high school as quickly as possible. *sigh*

Well...thats what school has been like since September until now. So much work...so little time...I'm surprisied I'm doing pretty good at this pace. LOL just can't sleep...I believe I now have insomia. CAN'T WAIT UNTIL WINTER BREAK!! I GET TO SLEEP AND HANG AROUND THE HOUSE!! =D

BTW: Assassin's Creed II is AWESOME!! Currently my fav game! =D

xD Ok i'm gonna end the post here. I just wanted to write this stuff down.

So I've been gone since....March? Yeah I think its around there. Well its for good reason, school was becoming a handful because of my laziness. I kinda fell behind in math so I was working real hard on that. (My math teacher did not teach...therefore I had to teach math to myself. Easy for some but hard me.) So as the obviously is, school's out and Summer is here! Man, time is going by real fast. =S I'm gonna have to start seeing what's beyond high school, Oh wait...we already have!  

So as the title suggests, I'm getting publish! =D This is totally awesome for me, I tell ya. Around April, I submitted a poem I wrote to the public library in hopes that I would get published in the yearly teen magazine the library puts out. XD I got news that I got in around early June through a phone call. I'm still so happy I can't even put it in words! LOL Anyway, my poem is gonna be in the 2010 edition, which is coming out around October this year I think. I don't get any money out of this publishing but I don't care. It makes me happy that my poem impressed a University professor and several other professional on the judging panel. The poem I wrote shares a similar theme with my other poem that I posted here titled, Tick...Tock...TIMES OUT. I actually wrote both around the same time, but decided one would go on here and the other be sent in. I'm not gonna post the published version on here because I don't want any problems with copyright and blah blah blah....I dunno, just want to avoid any trouble. =P However, once the magazine is out lol I'll put a scan copy of my poem out. =) So the reason why I'm putting this out here on Xanga is because of the great people here. I've had lots of people read my work and its through their suggestions,comments, and encouragement that I had the guts to write that poem and send it in. So THANK YOU GUYS! LOL This experience has proved a lot to myself.

Now on to the next topic. When people said it's hard to find a job, it sure as hell is! Man, since March I've been looking for a summer job, and its damn hard. Luckily, I got like 4 interviews.  Sadly all four interviews ended up down the toilet. Fortunately, through a youth employment program I got a job now! =D It's actually pretty good, and it's a real good way to get your first job. =) I start work on monday...which is tmmr. xD I'm kinda nervous and excited for it. I mean, its better than school...I'm not gonna get any homework. And I'm gonna earn some cash...though Mom's gonna be like "Don't use it all...save some for investments" and blah blah blah....I'm gonna use it anyway...because I earned! *o* (Don't worry...I'm not those kind of people who'll spend all their money on clothes...I just wanna buy some books, maybe a nice pen, Billy Talents new CD, and take my folks out to dinner for once. =P)

Well thats it for now. I don't want to post any thing new yet because I still got some ideas in my head. So, I'll see you guys around. =) and THANKS AGAIN TO EVERYONE HERE! THANK U!

SGB182

I know I haven't been on here in over a month, and this post won't be my "regular stuff", so to speak. I just need to vent a little.

Everything's been good lately. School's going smoothly, marks are still good, I'm still lazy, and the family's all cool. And all this is starting to really disturb me. Usually people would say this is great, but to me its weird. I know, I might be parnoined...but its just so f*cked up some how. Mom's still ice cold type of person, and Dad's all...in love with the God.

Yes, I do thank the church for helping my parents keep their marriage, but Dad's been pushing the thought of me becoming Christan a little too much for my liking. Which is  annoying...I won't disrespect what my dad holds dear to him, but I wish he'd stop saying to people that he hopes I become Christan as well some day. I don't wanna shoot that dream of his down, but in truth, I hold no intenstions what so ever to become Christan. I'll respect the name of God, I'll respect the people who believes in him, and I'll respect the family I have who do go to church but I just want to make it clear...I do NOT want to believe in God. I don't know why...I've tried before in the past but it just never worked for me. [=P i just wanted to say that out loud...]

So this is my last day of March Break or Spring Break. As much as I'd love to stay home and do pretty much nothing...school calls. =P The weeks been good, went downtown, watched a movie, went hiking and did homework along the way. Sadly, my sleeping problem has become a bigger issue lately. I keep waking up around the 5am hour for no reason. Hell, I don't even need to use the bathroom. *sigh* So if anyone's got an idea on how the "cure" this, please leave a comment. It would help me soooo much! I feel as though I'm insane or something....

*sigh* Anyway, I suggest for you all to watch the movie Knowing staring Nicolas Cage. X) It's pretty good. xD Good thing it was a good movie too...I had to pay full price today xD but hell I paid full price for a child ticket. XD Man I'm cheap.

I'll leave off my crazy ass rant here...Gotta go back to workin' on my assignment for Civics class. =P I might update again tonight with my "regular stuff". XD (Like hell...this kid here is lazy as hell XD) Man...I can't believe I forgot how much I love comin' on there...damn this laziness...xD If anyone's got a cure for that too leave a comment!

SGB182 =D